Life

Life is a beautiful word isn't it? Life to me is so many things, the most being precious. Too many people lose their life due to illness, suicide, car accidents, murder, you name it. Sadly yesterday left me at a loss, I could not pull myself away from the horrors that were unfolding in CT. A young man decided yesterday December 14, 2012 was a good day to kill his parents, 20 young children, and 8 adults who were teachers at a small town school. WHY? Why on earth did he feel that was something he should do? Were there signs his family and friends saw? Was there something that someone, anyone should have been on the look out for? Then I looked around at my own children and hugged them so tight...While crying, for I could not fathom losing them. Losing any child, any loved one, any one! I suffered loss in my family with deaths of grandparents, and the like, I had many, many miscarriages but this was something I could not even imagine. My worst nightmare. We have all experienced loss, but this....no words can describe. I had a hair appointment scheduled for yesterday afternoon when Jason got home, a Christmas treat to myself since things have been tight financially and I did not even want to go. I wanted to stay at home and cuddle my babies but alas I went. I went and got it cut and a few highlights, and came home scooped up all 3 kids in a bear hug and decided we would take them bowling for family night on base. It is free for kids and family every Friday night so I figured it would be something nice for us to do. The kids did not get it, and each of them slipped down the lane as if they were the ball! Was very funny actually..We then came home and I bathed my trio, kissed and cuddled them and put them all to bed after saying our prayers and singing "Jesus loves me". My kids have such good hearts...Then I retreated to my room to think, to pray, to mainly just be alone for a few minutes and wrap my head around the events of the day. How blessed I am and that my complaints at times seem well, so stupid! So NOT worth it. We get one shot at this life and I pray that I get to grow old with my children by my side. In the coming days/weeks I hope there are things that we as fellow Americans can donate or do something because that is what is on my heart to do, to help in some small way. I will post things as I find information on this, this is something I must do for me and I would love nothing more than to help someone, anyone and if any of you want to join me in this I will let you know! This morning I woke up and the first thing I did was kiss and hug each of my babies, Kellan loves to hug around the neck, and kisses my cheek calling me his girlfriend and his mommy..I smelled his hair that smells like coconuts, then I hugged my girls who both said "mommy we sleep good!" Then we trudged out for breakfast where they proceeded to chow down on cereal and I had tea to wake me up a bit. Sadly I did not sleep well but I fully intend to make this day nothing short of awesome! My kids are currently napping, then they will head to the babysitter at 2pm-8pm. Jason and I have some stuff we need to get done so when you move here the Family center offers 20 free hours of babysitting free, yes we are jumping at that!!! At 2pm I am signed up for a free class to make bath salts at the base library. Should be fun! Something I have never done before and who knows...Perhaps I will make a friend or two! Cleaning is done and this house is almost done. Next weekend we head to West Virginia for Christmas, and I am so excited to see family and share this holiday with all of them. May you all be blessed, safe and have a wonderful weekend!