Time marches on

Time is one of those things that we always think we have tons of, tomorrow we will tackle that pile of laundry or I will make a better effort of playing with my kids when I have more TIME. Recently the TIME word has slapped in the face, and shown me that we do not have tons of this precious gift in storage. So I let my house get a little more dirty than usual, the laundry is piling up more, BUT I dance. I dance daily with my kids, we put on Pandroa radio and we have a blast! Sometimes it is only for 30 minutes and sometimes it is until I am literally dripping in sweat and my tummy hurts from laughing with them-that is the best feeling in the world. To hear the laughter, see the smiles, the joy in their eyes...Well it does not get much better than that! Now I am not going to lie when I say I am DOG TIRED at the end of the day, BUT I am a mommy and my kids love me and need me and I need them more than they could ever know! Recent events such as the Boston marathon, even the awful events back in Decemeber of the school children and teachers being gunned down have brought many feelings and real life "stuff" back into focus for me. Also my best friend of 26 years now has a niece that is going through a very serious illness, this sweet little baby girl is not much older than my twins and I am thankful, so very thankful that my kids are happy and thriving. For life really is too short, time is too short, and so embrace those around you that bring you up, forgive those that may not bring you up because they might be going through something that hinders that and simply FORGIVE. I have forgiven a lot in my life, I have forgiven many people who hurt me in ways that I could never put into words but to release that anger and forgive is the best feeling in the world. Teaching my children to be kind to others and to forgive is so important, and even on the single mommy duty gig again I never miss an opportunity to tell them I love them-they are special-and they are doing a great job! My Scarlett is so soft, tender hearted, and always knows when a person needs a smile or a hug or soft kiss. My Kellan is all BOY, always into well...everything and always asking "Why" about EVERYTHING and yes there are times that radio in the car gets a little louder and louder but he is my little boyfriend(as he named himself that!) And Violet is my wild child, reminds me of my little sister who is not so little anymore(24 years old) and is loud, and loves to giggle, and snort when she laughes...Her laughs are infectious and her hair is wild, and curly and she loves to be all over the place but at night holds my face if I look tired and says "It's ok babe!" She says this because that is what I say to her when she may be feeling sick or not herself...It is so funny how we see our children in ourselves, isn't it? My children all resemble me, in different ways, and it amazes me more everyday as I am embarking on another year older on Wednesday. Where does the time go? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- My dad and I were talking about my little sister who is about to graduate highschool a few days ago and he said Hannah is doing such a good job at everything she sets her heart to! She will be attending UCLA in the Fall and I still get choked up just FYI-she is a rockstar in my book, all of my siblings are rockstars to me, we are all very close. Dad asked me what my highschool project was as a senior, right before graduation and sadly my reply was "To simply graduate." sigh...I was not a stellar student, I never really found my place during the school years. I always had a hard time retaining information because I have severe test anxiety, so the fear always won sadly. I graduated, no special honors, no special offers to prestigious colleges, I simply spent my summer working and trying to figure out what I wanted to be when I grew up. I still have no idea sadly, and time continues to march on...With or without me. I have a Bachelor's in Biology because I thought I would become a nurse but really have no "love" in my heart to do the school and quite frankly it would take up too much time from my kids which I am not willing to sacrifice, I am now working on a Master's in Health Administration and am enjoying it a great deal-I did Health Administration as well as medic stuff while I was in the Air Force and found out I was good at both. There is not a day that goes by that I do NOT miss the Air Force, it was the BEST thing I did with my life at such a young age, and to this very day I miss it but the exchange was that I was able to become a mommy, and currently a full time mommy until a job presents itself. That has been frustrating to say the least, I have applied for any and everything but this week should be the week I hear if I get the job on a few that I have had interviews on. Patience is NOT one of my traits and sadly this wait has been anything but fun, but perhaps it has been God testing me and telling me I need to chill out and learn the art of patience, who knows.... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Finally I got an awesome early birthday present, a Canon Rebel T3 camera, essentially a kick-butt camera that is everything I have been dreaming of for years and years! I am learning how to use this monster, because yes it is a monster-a computer-a camera, but I am so excited to be able to expand my love of taking pictures. I hope to find a real hobby here because I think I am good at it, and so far my subjects are 3 cute little kids! Enjoy the pictures I have attached-they are with my new camera! I appreciate the support and remember everyone, enjoy life, tell someone you love them, show them support, do not let time pass you by because time is a whisper, a vapor, and is above all a blessing. Love to you all from Florida!