I remember watching that show as a teenager thinking "wow what a life they have!" Boyfriends, parties, friends, etc...As a person gets older they realize more what is important and well....what is NOT. Over the past month or two I have many realizations, many changes that have set things in motion-forward motion as my best friend says. I love it-#movinforward and as a person who makes lists and notes of what I will do, need to do, and such I have also had to let go of a little bit of control. Yes you guessed it I am a control freak, and I have had to rely on faith in God, faith that the decisions and choices I am making are smart, safe, and are my own. I do not seek approval anymore like I once did, I do not chase people who do not want to be part of my life and WOW what a change that has been. Being that type of person for as long as I can remember, I have always wanted to know what others thought, I wanted to "fit" and why? Because I never have felt I fit well anywhere except in motherhood, which I am told by my trio that I am "The best mommy ever and so beautiful!" That is a compliment I carry with me on days where I feel like a failure, or too damn tired to lift my head, yet I get up every morning and go to one of my two jobs and work my tail off, come home and cook and clean and be mommy for the night and then repeat...every day! It is BUSY and it is the life I have right now, no choice so what is the sense in complaining I ask you? No point at all, I have food for my family, a roof over our heads, and the health of my family...Nope not much else I need! :) The furlough last week left me sad for myself, as a DoD employee who has been displaced for a LONG time, sad for friends/family who did not get paid and it laid very heavy on my heart and soul, yet today I read that it seems the furlough has been lifted. Praise God! Next I have been recovering from surgery, I have nothing to hide people, Yup I had augmentation, or rather a revision of said augmentation from nearly 6 years ago...Having twins, nursing twins, gaining tons of weight, then having another baby, nursing another baby, losing a whole lot of weight and FINALLY getting in shape not only physically, but mentally, spiritually, and all things in between. I am sure if my parents read this, they will say I share too much...Blah blah...sorry folks-this is a blog, an outlet and I keep it real! I love you though! :) I am happy with the decisions I have made, and am excited at all the blessings my family has been given, I hope 2014 brings peace to our world because that is one thing that literally hurts my heart and makes me very scared for the state of our affairs in this world. I want to feel pride in America and sadly right now that is right out the window...I am proud of all of us rallying and uniting as one BUT our Senate and President...NOPE NOT HAPPY. I will leave it at that, my blog, my rules. Today after working at Starbucks and being up at O' dark wayyy to early I came home and cleaned, spent time with the babies, did laundry, made dinner and cleaned the house...I multitask like no one else and I am proud to say that! Also did my homework-cannot forget that one!
Right before dinner I took a few pictures of my beautiful babies and some other things...I will post them here because that is where I love to show off my picture taking, however good or bad it might be and to show off what I see as beauty...Enjoy everyone. Remember-life is what you make of it~ You can either choose to be a downer or a positive influence. I choose to be positive, even when I do not want to, and why? Because I have 3 little reasons that need me, and I need me. If one person gets a smile from my pictures or can resonate with my ramblings and blogs then I am doing good. Who knows if I have any readers or followers. That is A-OK too!!!
Love to you all~
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