Lessons learned and noted...

First off I am sitting here listening to my calm down music, Phantom of the opera...Brings happy memories back, memories that I wish I could hop on like a train. Memories that I hang on to like a blanket, shielding me from quite frankly the "stuff" I have been dealing with recently. First off I must say I am SO TIRED of being a single mommy. Yes, Yes, Yes I am doing it ALONE and doing it so great BUT with that being said I am alone. People I used to call friends or family have seemed to have disapeered sadly, not being included in things has left a sting that I cannot put into words. I feel left out, I call my folks and hear laughter and pool parties and things that I am anything but involved in sadly. I am lonely to put it bluntly, I have been put through crap at work recently, not quite sure what is up with everyone but sadly knowing I will never advance farther than I am now, has me sad and quite honestly shows me I need to start looking elsewhere. I want more for my family/kids and myself so the looking for a new job is necessary. I have had people talking bad about me at work recently, patients yelling at me telling me I am not capable. WOW-talk about jolt to my heart. I am far removed from most people, who wants to here the sob stories of someone? Come on, I am realistic about that!! Yet I digress... I am sitting here planning some stuff for my kiddos, the zoo this weekend and perhaps breakfast tomorrow morning, it is their most favorite meal. I will continue to please them always, they are my people. I have gotten used to it being just me, I am quite the introvert anymore. May not be the most ideal way of being but sadly it is my only way to be currently. A bible verse that spoke to me tonight... "Who shall separate us from the love of Christ?" Romans 8:35 No one will separate me, I have my God, my children and I am blessed despite my funk and poor me status tonight. Attached are a few pictures, one of the kids photo shoot last weekend, I cannot wait to get the rest!!! My kids are simply the most beautiful people ever and the last photo is of me, I chopped all of my hair off and feel fantastic about it. I feel like "Me" again. So to my few readers I appreciate the time and effort to read, it really does mean more than you know as I have had a quite lonely patch lately. I will dig deep as I always do and move forward. Love and blessings... Sarah