Do you all out there in blogger-ville have those days where you think too much, worry too much, and just cannot seem to chill out and stop and smell those roses? Every day I have a task list of a mile long and every day I am no closer to accomplishing it, and why yes it sends my OCD into a downward spiral! We had mom here (Jason's mom) and it was so nice to have her interact with the kids, spoil us with dinners out and not to mention her amazing cooking but as I sit here I am reflecting. I think up until a few days ago I have been taking the stay at home mom gig for granted, I am in touch with so many mommy's out there on Facebook, Instagram and through church who seem to quite frankly have it all together. Me? I feel as if I am a fish out of water, I do not flow well with this new "job" of mine. It is so darn hard, but on the flips side I would not change it for the world. Am I confusing everyone yet? Haha! Jason and I have been talking about the best way to keep our trio engaged, busy, entertained, and we came up with a schedule. Arts and crafts, walks, and playing in the backyard more. I am going to do some yardwork out there in the back today and get it looking how I want! Yes OCD again....See a pattern? I want to get this stuff done soon because it will more than likely be too hot to devote tons of time to it in a month or so...
I have been literally looking for a job since last October, I have applied for hundreds of jobs, both civilian and Government and have had a few interviews in the civilian arena but sadly the money is nothing short of not so good. Soooooo...I had had to turn down several because let's face it, daycare would cost me an arm and a leg as it did in Colorado..It needs to be the right fit for me, my family and our life. I wish I could be one of those moms out there who do not have money worries and can work or not, sadly in order for our life to get better I need to work so I have been choosey with what I will and will not take. Last night I got a tentative offer from the Department of Defense, since I am in the system it is rather easy I just need to make sure that it will be a positive in our lives and take all factors into account. We will see what happens, I am praying about it and giving it to God. I talked to one of my bible-study friends, Evan and she said that is all I can do...Is give it to God and see what he puts on my heart so I will trust him and trust his path that he has intended for me. In church service on Sunday it was a simple message--about Giving. God gave to us with no strings attached, no what is in it for him and that he was always gracious and kind. Take for example the last supper, he washed the feet of the people around him when in essence they should have done that for him but he was always humble and kind. Also I was slapped in the face in the mental sense with this simple idea, if I turn my faith to God I cannot go wrong for he will lead me on a path I am meant to be on. I need to trust, with blind faith and make that transition, that leap...How many of you have a tough time making that blind leap, even if your faith is different from others? I find it so scary and uneasy but again I need to trust it will be OK!
Finally I challenge you all to make simple changes in your life, be it letting go of emotional baggage, physical baggage or a combination of things. This is something that I am currently working on and I must say, it feels GREAT! There will always be those naysayers in your life that want to see you fail, to fall, to lose focus but do not let them! It is that simple, remain rooted in your faith, in your thoughts, in your hope and life...For life is a wild ride, but my ride is getting better with every passing minute, my kids are beautiful and amazing, my husband and I have found our way back to one another again after many ups and downs and finally I am starting to slowly find MY way and MY place here in Florida...I am reaching out to others, my church is amazing, God put me there for a reason...I am keeping busy and loving life, enjoy each day everyone! I am posting a few pictures that make me feel good, they make me happy to look at! I am so bery blessed!
Love and light to you all~
Do you all out there in blogger-ville have those days where you think too much, worry too much, and just cannot seem to chill out and stop and smell those roses? Every day I have a task list of a mile long and every day I am no closer to accomplishing it, and why yes it sends my OCD into a downward spiral! We had mom here (Jason's mom) and it was so nice to have her interact with the kids, spoil us with dinners out and not to mention her amazing cooking but as I sit here I am reflecting. I think up until a few days ago I have been taking the stay at home mom gig for granted, I am in touch with so many mommy's out there on Facebook, Instagram and through church who seem to quite frankly have it all together. Me? I feel as if I am a fish out of water, I do not flow well with this new "job" of mine. It is so darn hard, but on the flips side I would not change it for the world. Am I confusing everyone yet? Haha! Jason and I have been talking about the best way to keep our trio engaged, busy, entertained, and we came up with a schedule. Arts and crafts, walks, and playing in the backyard more. I am going to do some yardwork out there in the back today and get it looking how I want! Yes OCD again....See a pattern? I want to get this stuff done soon because it will more than likely be too hot to devote tons of time to it in a month or so...
I have been literally looking for a job since last October, I have applied for hundreds of jobs, both civilian and Government and have had a few interviews in the civilian arena but sadly the money is nothing short of not so good. Soooooo...I had had to turn down several because let's face it, daycare would cost me an arm and a leg as it did in Colorado..It needs to be the right fit for me, my family and our life. I wish I could be one of those moms out there who do not have money worries and can work or not, sadly in order for our life to get better I need to work so I have been choosey with what I will and will not take. Last night I got a tentative offer from the Department of Defense, since I am in the system it is rather easy I just need to make sure that it will be a positive in our lives and take all factors into account. We will see what happens, I am praying about it and giving it to God. I talked to one of my bible-study friends, Evan and she said that is all I can do...Is give it to God and see what he puts on my heart so I will trust him and trust his path that he has intended for me. In church service on Sunday it was a simple message--about Giving. God gave to us with no strings attached, no what is in it for him and that he was always gracious and kind. Take for example the last supper, he washed the feet of the people around him when in essence they should have done that for him but he was always humble and kind. Also I was slapped in the face in the mental sense with this simple idea, if I turn my faith to God I cannot go wrong for he will lead me on a path I am meant to be on. I need to trust, with blind faith and make that transition, that leap...How many of you have a tough time making that blind leap, even if your faith is different from others? I find it so scary and uneasy but again I need to trust it will be OK!
Finally I challenge you all to make simple changes in your life, be it letting go of emotional baggage, physical baggage or a combination of things. This is something that I am currently working on and I must say, it feels GREAT! There will always be those naysayers in your life that want to see you fail, to fall, to lose focus but do not let them! It is that simple, remain rooted in your faith, in your thoughts, in your hope and life...For life is a wild ride, but my ride is getting better with every passing minute, my kids are beautiful and amazing, my husband and I have found our way back to one another again after many ups and downs and finally I am starting to slowly find MY way and MY place here in Florida...I am reaching out to others, my church is amazing, God put me there for a reason...I am keeping busy and loving life, enjoy each day everyone! I am posting a few pictures that make me feel good, they make me happy to look at! I am so bery blessed!
Love and light to you all~
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