Time is something we spend money trying to erase on our bodies, faces, etc...Time is a gift, not many have the gift of time sadly, and what is more we never really know how much time we are given. We at times take the beautiful word of "time" for granted don't we? I know I am guilty of that, it is human nature isn't it? When I joined the Air Force nearly 15 years ago I could not wait to gain more rank, get to new bases, have a family, get married and of course this list is in no specific order. I spent my time enjoying friends, enjoying the different activities my state that I lived in at the time had to offer and made some of the most important, vital and treasured friendships/relationships that I have to this day. I have my best friend in the Chicago burbs area, I have a dear friend in Kansas, one in New Orleans, one in Kentucky, one in Florida-that is soon to be in Washington state and then I have a few dear friends in California from my childhood, teenage years and beyond. I treasure my friendships and relationships alike so very much, I believe life brings us to those people for a reason, and at just the right time in a person's life. My friend Michelle, my best friend, my chelle-belle...We have had our share of fights and funks but we always come back to a common love and respect for one another...That is the beauty of true friendship. My other best friend Vanessa in California I have known for nearly 26 years, we are sisters, she is family, she is my nessa. We may not talk for months but the minute we see one another or talk it is as if no time has gone by, and that my friends is what life is all about. The people that influence that life, this life, this PRECIOUS gift. I compile my thoughts daily and decide what to blog on based on what my heart is feeling like, today and well lately it is nostalgic, it is missing those "people" in my life. It also shows me I need to call those people and "check in". We live in a time of cell phones, Ipads, etc...Where texting has become the communication and I am so very guilty of this, I am trying to get better at "talking" NOT typing my feelings, and I am learning to turn the Iphone OFF and spend time with my family. My Scarlett who is my oldest by one minute and then Kellan, she says she hates my phone and that "I always on the phone mama, I no like it!" WOW, that spoke volumes to me this week when she said that to me so I am learning to disengage from said phone, vice and LIVE. For my friends, family, loved ones, and blog supporters/followers TIME is precious and that we need to remember more than anything, stop checking that phone, email to see if you have anything to comment on-LIVE those moments and try not to comment on those moments instead, LIVE those moments. Since moving here I have had a rough time, there I said it...I miss my friends and family in Colorado, I miss the mountains and yes even the snow...I miss my home that we put so much love into...For the past few months I have sadly been more focused on that and have not been able to enjoy my new life here in Florida as much, Yes I am human and I find that it is so much easier to focus on the negative, it is human nature in my opinion but it takes a personal decision EVERY DAY to decide to embrace the positive, the beautiful. So I reached out to a women named Evan at Shoreline church here in Ft Walton Beach, it is a flip flops and jeans type of church with rock and roll music and an easy going vibe that I love, I feel home. I emailed Evan asking her about a women's bibestudy that meets Wednesday mornings and daycare is available-high fives all around! The first week I chickened out, I was afraid to meet new people, to put myself out there because I have been burned before so I stayed homd and did not go. Evan emailed me that afternoon after the study met and asked me if everything was ok, I told her I chickened out-Yup I totally was afraid! How silly! She told me I was being silly and that these women are amazing, kind and would welcome my kids and I with open arms...The next week I went and I have to tell you, what a blessing! I am hooked, there are women who are younger than I, older than I, have kids, grandkids and all have a common thing-we are women trying to find our way through God's word, trying to be the best at what life has given us and trying to remain positive in the process! I also attend on Sundays with the trio, they learn something new every Sunday...This Sunday they are home because the kids and Jason are all fighting a cold so I decided to stay home and help so Jason could get some good rest and perhaps feel better soon. I was always that person who had a sinus infection, thyroid issues, mono as a teenager, the sick person and even into my 30's I am always battling something sadly. It is very much a downer and for a few days I have been in a funk about it because I am once again battling some health stuff, but I came to this realization as I was praying last night...There is a reason I am dealing with this stuff, perhaps to help someone else, to help my kids heaven forbid they ever get sick, or simply to just learn to deal better. I have had my "I am feeling sorry for myself time" and now it is about what I can do to make it liveable, doable and not allow IT to wreak havoc on my heart, my soul, and fill me with worry. YES I am worried, YES I am scared, YES I am nervous...So nervous I cannot even put into words BUT with that being said I will prevail, I will rally, because I have God, my family, my friends and myself on MY SIDE! Yesterday Jason decided he would cook dinner, I have been lacking in that area recently, the kids keep me so busy and come dinner time I am pooped! Haha! He made a seafood feast! Crab legs, shrimp, crabcakes for the kids and him, hush puppies for the kids and him(Puppies as the kids call them!) Then we did bath time, and spending time together after that watching a movie on the Disneychannel...By the way I am so sick of all things Disney-Just sayin'! Haha! I sing the songs morning, noon and night! Yesterday we were also able to FINALLY enjoy some outside time, the kids played in the backyard for a few hours, got good and filthy and had a ball! Our Winter here has been very rainy and windy at times, so to play outside was lovely, I took some pictures of the kids, of us and it was so fun! I even was able to get some time to run to the local health food store and get some Gluten free necessities...This area does not have a very good selection of stores that have these types of products so it is is almost like a game...Which store has what you need? Sometimes I have to go to 3 or 4 stores just to get the things I need, also Amazon.com is always my tried and true! Today I am making a run to the produce stand for our weekly essentials of fruits and veggies, then to the store for our staples and I plan on making a simple chicken soup with lots of veggies and some gluten free cheese bread. Our family needs a simple meal today so that the sickies can get better! So my folks in blogger-ville~~~I have been struggling with working outside the home or not working outside the home. This is the first time in nearly 15 years I have NOT had a regular job outside the home and it has been a struggle to say the least. To a point I feel somewhat guilty because here I am, home with my young kids, able to make a difference in their lives, teach them numbers, letters, do art work, etc...and we do all of those things but I find myself still missing the work sector! I miss dressing up, doing my hair, make-up, making money that is more than the piddly un-employment I currently get. I miss that piece of my life, do any other mom's out there miss that? I feel selfish to a point, because I have friends that would give anything for this opportunity, Yet I find myself restless, wanting more and wanting to not live paycheck to paycheck. I have been offered a few jobs since moving here but the money is sadly not worth it due to daycare costs, I had an interview on Friday and nailed it, I will see what HR offers come Tuesday...It would be a night job and I would avoid daycare costs and be able to contribute to our household better than un-umployment so we will see...I find it an internal struggle of sorts, and being a Government employee on leave without pay I thought I would be able to find something in the Government realm but it still seems nearly impossible...Sigh...I will close considering I wrote a novel! Ha! I have posted several pictures that were taken yesterday in our backyard while enjoying some warm weather! Thank you to all who support my blog, my ramblings and the like. I appreciate the love and I will make sure to post my recipe for the Gluten free cheese bread soon! XOXO~ Sarah
Time is something we spend money trying to erase on our bodies, faces, etc...Time is a gift, not many have the gift of time sadly, and what is more we never really know how much time we are given. We at times take the beautiful word of "time" for granted don't we? I know I am guilty of that, it is human nature isn't it? When I joined the Air Force nearly 15 years ago I could not wait to gain more rank, get to new bases, have a family, get married and of course this list is in no specific order. I spent my time enjoying friends, enjoying the different activities my state that I lived in at the time had to offer and made some of the most important, vital and treasured friendships/relationships that I have to this day. I have my best friend in the Chicago burbs area, I have a dear friend in Kansas, one in New Orleans, one in Kentucky, one in Florida-that is soon to be in Washington state and then I have a few dear friends in California from my childhood, teenage years and beyond. I treasure my friendships and relationships alike so very much, I believe life brings us to those people for a reason, and at just the right time in a person's life. My friend Michelle, my best friend, my chelle-belle...We have had our share of fights and funks but we always come back to a common love and respect for one another...That is the beauty of true friendship. My other best friend Vanessa in California I have known for nearly 26 years, we are sisters, she is family, she is my nessa. We may not talk for months but the minute we see one another or talk it is as if no time has gone by, and that my friends is what life is all about. The people that influence that life, this life, this PRECIOUS gift. I compile my thoughts daily and decide what to blog on based on what my heart is feeling like, today and well lately it is nostalgic, it is missing those "people" in my life. It also shows me I need to call those people and "check in". We live in a time of cell phones, Ipads, etc...Where texting has become the communication and I am so very guilty of this, I am trying to get better at "talking" NOT typing my feelings, and I am learning to turn the Iphone OFF and spend time with my family. My Scarlett who is my oldest by one minute and then Kellan, she says she hates my phone and that "I always on the phone mama, I no like it!" WOW, that spoke volumes to me this week when she said that to me so I am learning to disengage from said phone, vice and LIVE. For my friends, family, loved ones, and blog supporters/followers TIME is precious and that we need to remember more than anything, stop checking that phone, email to see if you have anything to comment on-LIVE those moments and try not to comment on those moments instead, LIVE those moments. Since moving here I have had a rough time, there I said it...I miss my friends and family in Colorado, I miss the mountains and yes even the snow...I miss my home that we put so much love into...For the past few months I have sadly been more focused on that and have not been able to enjoy my new life here in Florida as much, Yes I am human and I find that it is so much easier to focus on the negative, it is human nature in my opinion but it takes a personal decision EVERY DAY to decide to embrace the positive, the beautiful. So I reached out to a women named Evan at Shoreline church here in Ft Walton Beach, it is a flip flops and jeans type of church with rock and roll music and an easy going vibe that I love, I feel home. I emailed Evan asking her about a women's bibestudy that meets Wednesday mornings and daycare is available-high fives all around! The first week I chickened out, I was afraid to meet new people, to put myself out there because I have been burned before so I stayed homd and did not go. Evan emailed me that afternoon after the study met and asked me if everything was ok, I told her I chickened out-Yup I totally was afraid! How silly! She told me I was being silly and that these women are amazing, kind and would welcome my kids and I with open arms...The next week I went and I have to tell you, what a blessing! I am hooked, there are women who are younger than I, older than I, have kids, grandkids and all have a common thing-we are women trying to find our way through God's word, trying to be the best at what life has given us and trying to remain positive in the process! I also attend on Sundays with the trio, they learn something new every Sunday...This Sunday they are home because the kids and Jason are all fighting a cold so I decided to stay home and help so Jason could get some good rest and perhaps feel better soon. I was always that person who had a sinus infection, thyroid issues, mono as a teenager, the sick person and even into my 30's I am always battling something sadly. It is very much a downer and for a few days I have been in a funk about it because I am once again battling some health stuff, but I came to this realization as I was praying last night...There is a reason I am dealing with this stuff, perhaps to help someone else, to help my kids heaven forbid they ever get sick, or simply to just learn to deal better. I have had my "I am feeling sorry for myself time" and now it is about what I can do to make it liveable, doable and not allow IT to wreak havoc on my heart, my soul, and fill me with worry. YES I am worried, YES I am scared, YES I am nervous...So nervous I cannot even put into words BUT with that being said I will prevail, I will rally, because I have God, my family, my friends and myself on MY SIDE! Yesterday Jason decided he would cook dinner, I have been lacking in that area recently, the kids keep me so busy and come dinner time I am pooped! Haha! He made a seafood feast! Crab legs, shrimp, crabcakes for the kids and him, hush puppies for the kids and him(Puppies as the kids call them!) Then we did bath time, and spending time together after that watching a movie on the Disneychannel...By the way I am so sick of all things Disney-Just sayin'! Haha! I sing the songs morning, noon and night! Yesterday we were also able to FINALLY enjoy some outside time, the kids played in the backyard for a few hours, got good and filthy and had a ball! Our Winter here has been very rainy and windy at times, so to play outside was lovely, I took some pictures of the kids, of us and it was so fun! I even was able to get some time to run to the local health food store and get some Gluten free necessities...This area does not have a very good selection of stores that have these types of products so it is is almost like a game...Which store has what you need? Sometimes I have to go to 3 or 4 stores just to get the things I need, also Amazon.com is always my tried and true! Today I am making a run to the produce stand for our weekly essentials of fruits and veggies, then to the store for our staples and I plan on making a simple chicken soup with lots of veggies and some gluten free cheese bread. Our family needs a simple meal today so that the sickies can get better! So my folks in blogger-ville~~~I have been struggling with working outside the home or not working outside the home. This is the first time in nearly 15 years I have NOT had a regular job outside the home and it has been a struggle to say the least. To a point I feel somewhat guilty because here I am, home with my young kids, able to make a difference in their lives, teach them numbers, letters, do art work, etc...and we do all of those things but I find myself still missing the work sector! I miss dressing up, doing my hair, make-up, making money that is more than the piddly un-employment I currently get. I miss that piece of my life, do any other mom's out there miss that? I feel selfish to a point, because I have friends that would give anything for this opportunity, Yet I find myself restless, wanting more and wanting to not live paycheck to paycheck. I have been offered a few jobs since moving here but the money is sadly not worth it due to daycare costs, I had an interview on Friday and nailed it, I will see what HR offers come Tuesday...It would be a night job and I would avoid daycare costs and be able to contribute to our household better than un-umployment so we will see...I find it an internal struggle of sorts, and being a Government employee on leave without pay I thought I would be able to find something in the Government realm but it still seems nearly impossible...Sigh...I will close considering I wrote a novel! Ha! I have posted several pictures that were taken yesterday in our backyard while enjoying some warm weather! Thank you to all who support my blog, my ramblings and the like. I appreciate the love and I will make sure to post my recipe for the Gluten free cheese bread soon! XOXO~ Sarah
I have found this to be hard sometimes as well...we are often sucked in to wishing we had what others do, vs. appreciate what WE have. Keep your chin up...I know it's hard. And nearly every grocery store now a days has a gluten free/organic section-sometimes its just a matter of searching them out. It took me quite a few months to find a store I love!
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