Yes, Yes, Yes-I fell off of the blogger wagon! I got busy, I moved with our babies to West Virginia while Jason went to mandatory re-training in Texas for a new job. The kids started school here about 6 weeks ago, and it is odd to have time to myself! Since 2008 when I began my life as a parent, from being pregnant until now I have been so focused on that life that somewhere along the way I simply forgot what made me happy, what I enjoyed doing again, heck I still find it strange to drop them off and they just go and play and do their thing! When did that happen? I usually drop all 3 off, then head to the gym and work out, work on ME. Over the summer several things happened to me, personally, emotionally, physically, and sadly I stopped eating correctly. I stopped exercising, I simply STOPPED. I am sure there are many out there in blogger-ville that have felt that way. I choose not to go into details for those are personal but I will be honest that it is possible to lose yourself. The way I see it is each situation, each state you live in, each relationship you are in be it a friendship or a love type of relationship-a piece of yourself is taken away little bits by bits. And before you know it, you are a 34 year old woman who is wondering what she wants to do with her life? What she enjoys doing besides being a mommy on the down time? Or perhaps what she strives to do in the future. In about a months time we will leave West Virginia, and move to our new home state of New Mexico! Holloman Air Force base more specifically, in Alamogordo. I am told there is a lot of beauty around the area, I grew up about 12 hours from that area so I will be close to my family and friends again. My best friend of 25 plus years will finally be close enough to see somewhat often, I am so excited for that. My babies will miss their West Virginia family so much but they will gain their California/Arizona family and I am excited about that too! We will live on base in a pretty darn beautiful house-spacious, newer, and I could not be more thrilled! I hope to make friends, I hope to make our little family of 5 stronger for all of the separations have put us all in different directions. I have began looking for jobs, I am hopeful for a Government job but am also going to be applying for civilian hospitals, and these jobs will be during normal hours- because my family needs to come first. I loved Starbuck's, it was a great job and gave me great insight into a job in food service but it makes it all the more clear that I am in love with the medical field. All aspects of the medical field, I am taking some courses to get my medical coding/billing certifications again, I am also going to make sure my medical skills are up to date, overall just make sure I am ready and good to go! I applied for several yesterday and already got a call for an interview next month when I get to the area. I am excited, and optimistic!
For years I was always a person that was a glass half empty, negative first, self-destruction to the max-then one day I simply woke up and realized it had to stop! It had to stop for ME, for my babies, for my marriage, for MY LIFE. Now 2 months later I am happy, healthy, and ready to conquer new mountains. I have a lot of things I still need to regroup on but for now I am taking it minute by minute and that is A-OK with me!
I smile because I truly want to, I love ME because I am worth it and finally I am working on a better Sarah! Tomorrow is gym time, Les Mills body pump class kills but has helped in my losing a few inches, a few pounds and I am so stoked with the results thus far. I have about 25 pounds to go but each day I am trying and that is what matters the most.
Try your best and reach for the stars! You never know who's life you might change by a simple smile, a kind word, or reaching out to an old friend for no reason. Those things are important!
Sending love and light to all!
Namaste my friends~
Sarah
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