Monday's...Never been a fan~

~When one wakes up on a Monday morning it is usually a difficult wake up and this coming from a morning person! OUCH! I slept fitfully, and for some reason nightmares have snuck their way into my dreams lately so I wake up scared as hell, AND drenched in sweat. The nightmares I pray will go away soon, as quite frankly I have never had really bad ones until recently. The night sweats on the other hand are new but I am sure a reason behind one of the MANY medications I am taking. I saw my Endocrinologist today and he said it could be a great many things but more than likely one of the medications simply creating that super fun thing-night sweats...AWESOME!(NOT!) I woke up, helped get our cute trio ready for school and Jason took them to daycare, I then proceeded to start the myriad of pills for my Monday. I start with 5 in the morning on an empty stomach that make me sick and send me back to bed for the better part of the morning, then wake up again, take more, and retreat to the couch to eat something and try and come out of the medication fog/haze that I seem to always be in these days. I am trying to take it all in stride though, almost done with some of the medications so things WILL GET BETTER! Then surgery and things WILL GET BETTER! I am telling myself that because damn, I am not sure I can handle much more. I broke down in my Dr's office today because all the medications, appointments, etc have me....Well overwhelmed. Jason leaves for Korea next week already...WOW time goes by quick, but hopefully the Air Force will approve him coming home, we have a lot on our side thankfully to include many Dr notes etc stating this, but I feel the weight of the world on my shoulders and being a mommy and wife never stops either. I would much rather devote my time to those two wonderful duties as opposed to appt after appt, but I must say I am getting excellent care and I need to remember to be gracious and above all GRATEFUL! So I will focus more on the grateful aspect as opposed to the overwhelming aspect. Tomorrow on the agenda is another appointment but this time when I wake up I plan on going for a walk around my neighborhood, fresh air will do me good, THEN I will come home and take that awful medication. :P The old saying--"If God brings you to it, then he will bring you through it". Rings true, I just hope I have the ability to do this, I am lacking and need some cheerleading in a big way. So I will continue to do my best. At the end of the day I talked with my supervisor who reassured me that I will be fine, my job will be fine, and they all miss me! A good feeling indeed, and something I really needed to hear today. Then Nana and Papa from next door came for a visit tonight, that was fun to see the kids hugging and kissing on them, we are so blessed to have them steps away from us. They are so selfless and giving and they help me always see the positive. So Kathy if you are reading this, I love you and cannot Thank you enough!

I am all tuckered out everyone, today was an emotionally draining day...
Much Love from CO!

~S