Goodbye's

Goodbye's are always so very tough, this is what I have been wrestling with this week. In a few short weeks I will no longer live in Colorado Springs, Co...We will move on to Florida and although sounds fantastic on one hand I leave behind a few very IMPORTANT people in my/our lives. When I was in the Air Force I got good at the Goodbye "stuff", I am proud to say I have kept in touch with many of my people over the years and still nearly 13 years later I still talk to most of my important people over the many bases I had the honor of serving at. I did a myriad of different jobs as a young one in the Air Force and thankfully it has made me the well-rounded 32 year old I am today. Yet when I got to Colorado my life changed, in good ways, not so good ways and in general life "stuff" happened. The most vital parts where I met and married Jason, and finally I became a mommy. Being a mommy means giving up on what you want, some may say there is room for "Me" and my hobbies but at almost a year now of the single parent gig I can tell you that is very far from the truth but in my heart I know my kids need me more than my hobbies did/do. I will find "Me" again when we are a family again perhaps. Yet here I sit having done alot of going through stuff, getting ready for movers in a few short weeks, and all the while alone. Thankfully my kids know mommy is busy and bless their hearts they all try to help but it was my Scarlett who came up to me tonight as I was folding summer clothes that we no longer really need..She simply came up, touched my cheek and said "I love you mommy, its ok." How my almost 3 year old knows I needed that more than anything I have no idea but of course me being the emotional being I am burst into tears and hugged her for what seemed like hours, then she wiped some of my tears away and went to play. What good hearted, sweet and loving kids I have raised! I take that honor proudly, I have done this alone and darn it my kids are so amazing, I look forward to seeing what wonderful people they will grow into. Yet here I sit thinking about the goodbye's, there are 4 people that made a HUGE difference in my life, Jay and Marci, and Don and Kathy. My kids and I would be sad without these people and here I sit wondering how will I say goodbye to Don and Kathy who were there for darn near every event in our lives this last 6 years? Kathy and Don have been tireless in their efforts at loving us and now I will have to say Goodbye, for awhile...Jay and Marci, what can I say, they are another couple who have provided laughs and friendship and a friendship I will forever cherish. I work with some wonderful people who made work better this past 6 years and I will miss those special people dearly as well. I feel sad, and nervous for this will be out of my comfort zone and let's face it...Sarah is OCD and LOVES control! I guess that is why I have been rather quiet lately, I am attempting to process alot of stuff in my life and it is so hard to put those words into a blog. I thank everyone for the support,emotionally, spiritually, etc...It is truly a gift and it has helped me get through a very, very difficult year. I will do what I do best, get organized and simply "do". The Air Force taught me well, and my parents raised me to be a strong and independent women which I am proud to say I am. God Bless you all~