I can, I will, and I WILL CONCURE!

~A few things I am sure of, almost a year back I was well meek...I did not have faith in my abilities as a single mom, as a wife, as an employee and most importantly I did not believe in ME. Over this year I have grown stronger in mind, spirit(God is always my cheerleader-even when I do not want one!) My body is getting there in the strength department. Finally I stopped acting like a victim, most of the time! Ha! I make light of it but I try EVERY SINGLE DAY to make it count. My best friend Michelle always says that and it forever echos in my heart and soul as she is deeply a part of both. "I can't" is no longer in my vocabulary--Why? Because well I CAN and I WILL! I got news from my Dr today, pathology reports back from last weeks procedure-fest and well it seems I am in bad shape tummy wise. Somehow despite my VERY strict Gluten free diet wheat/gluten are sneaking in...Bastards! So I must go back to easy food, simple, bland even and let my poor stomach heal...Second I have Chrone's disease...I do not know much about it so this weekend I plan on doing some research and how it interacts with my Celiac disease. This will not stop me from life. Would I like to roll over, hide under a rock and just be? YES YES YES! But my 3 little ones bring me my joy, my light and my well...everything in between. I have constant support from many avenues and if I do not say it enough to you all, you mean the world to me...You know who you are! <3 I got some new vitamins and some new pro-biotics so I hope this helps. Day 4 of working out, may not seem like much to some but to come home, cook for the kids and I, baths for the trio, dogs fed, etc...Then kids to bed, kisses and hugs multiple time because they "LUB ME" as Kellan says it. I then for 30 minutes dedicate to myself, to my body that I am trying to heal from the inside and the outside. I have been doing Pilates to a DVD, it is called "Zone Pilates". I bought it a few years back before babies on the home shopping network! Haha! It works awesome, and the bonus I literally work all those muscles. Tonight I thought about not doing it and laying around yet I did it anyhow. Heck yeah! Bicep curls, Tricep curls, shoulder press, ab work, and butt work...My two problem areas if you will are my abs and my backside. Side note it is so funny to see Violet and Kellan from behind, those poor kids are built like their mama! A big butt and wide hips! <3 But I need to remember God made me this way and I am becoming more comfortable in my own skin as I get older. I care less and less about what people think of and more of what I need to do to be the best mommy I can be and the best ME I can be! No one will make you happy but yourself-also taken from my Michelle. She has been my rock for many years and I am so blessed to have her, even when she gets frustrated at me for certain things! Friends fight and make up...<3 Tomorrow is Thursday, I will wake up grateful to be here for another day...Love my kids, pray work is over quick and do all of this with a smile. :) It is so much easier to smile than to frown so I opt for more smiles and more positive feedback in my life! May you all have a nice night...Till then sport's fans! Much love from Colorado-Soon to be Florida! YEEEEESSSS! ~S