Moving-NO BUENO!

First off I will say MOVING SUCKS! Moving sucks with 3 kids who have been thrown around in different time zones, different routines, staying in many different houses, hotels and such. They are officially off their rockers! Whew! There I said it-please no one think I am a bad mommy but my kiddos have been VERY, VERY tough to take this past few weeks and even worse since we arrived in Florida. I am strict, We like routine, structure and sadly it all went by the wayside slowely so now I am back to being strict and with routines and they hate it. They cry, scream, throw fits and it is awful. Yesterday we attempted to hit the mall, this is usually my kids favorite place to be-NOPE-NO BUENO! Fits were thrown, Kellan kicked and screamed and people were staring at him as if his head may rotate all the way around! Haha! Actually Jason and I were in stunned silence, maybe my tongue was hanging out of my mouth thinking-"What in the hell?" What happened to my well behaved kids who used to listen? Who did not throw holy hell fits and kick and scream and yell? As I sigh, shoulders sagging-I FEEL DEFEATED! Jason is in the other room giving me "mommy time" since he works tomorrow and knows I am with the trio all day with no car-should be FUN! This weekend was awful, we are in a 1 bedroom condo if you even want to call it that and we have horrible neighbors who came and yelled at Jason last night because 2 nights in a row we have called to complain about their 90 pound dog who barks ALL NIGHT LONG. Barks in the morning, noon and night...BARKING, ALWAYS BARKING! Jason simply said that we have young kids who sleep in said front room on fold out couch and that it is not right to allow your dog to bark all night and keep people up. He yelled at Jason, good thing he did not deal with me because I would have been in his face. Jason is the calm one, and I usually am but after the month I have had-Nah I would have ate him alive. I know this post seems rather icky, I guess moving shows me I miss my home. My kids having their beds and rooms and toys and things that they enjoy. I miss my bed, I miss cooking in my own kitchen and well just having our own space. The housing office said perhaps we will have a house next week being as this is Thanksgiving week, I pray that next week we get our home and our life into a routine and some sense of normalcy again! We need normal, all of us, then we can hopefully learn how to be a family again. That is the variable that people tend not to talk about it would seem, the reintegration period, learning how to be a cohesive unit again. I think over all it is going good, but it is weird for him I am sure since he was just by himself for a year and me of course I had the kids and me alone. Very different dynamics for sure, but as we navigate this new place, new road, new adventure I am sure it will come together. The being a stay at home mommy for now has me out of sorts, I miss work and although I love my kids, love being with them I need more than to be a stay at home mommy. I commend all mommy's out there who can do it, I really do because it takes such major amounts of patience and the ability to plan activities, and meals and such. I miss working, the plan is for me to work a few nights a week, an ideal setting would be to work at 11pm-7am shift at a hospital 3 days a week OR a regular full time job in a higher government service rating which is looking about 50/50 currently. There are several jobs I qualify for, Tuesday I have to talk to Civilian Personel here on base and register with this state and simply wait. Wait and hope, and pray. In an ideal world we would like to cut daycare costs by my working nights BUT if the good higher rated job comes along then daycare it is for the kids once again. I will try to make this time with them count, because not many mom's get the chance and I figure I am being given this gift and that is what I need to look at it as...My children are a gift. This week is Thanksgiving, I cannot believe it! My dear friend of 14 years is now living in Florida with her family. We moved here a month apart, we are spending this holdiday with them. I have not seen her in 14 years, we always talk, keep in touch and joke. We met in basic training, both girls from California turned Air Force. She was my other half and still is A true friendship can withstand anything, distance never hurt our relationship and now as luck would have it we live just a few hours from one another now. We are heading her way for a fun Thanksgiving and sleep over and I cannot wait! This Thanksgiving I am thankful for the loving and lasting relationships that I have in my life. Distance will not ruin those I am truly close to, I cherish all of my friendships, and they are always in my heart and prayers. As I close I am sorry for the blabber early on, but this has been a trying month. At the end of the night though the kids I THINK are finally asleep-and soon I will watch a bit of TV and hit the hay as well. Up early with the kids and we will head to the beach, our new favorite thing to do and tomorrow afternoon I have a pedicure and my very first hot yoga class planned. I am so excited, and I ordered P90X so soon that will come and then I will begin that as well. I am so ready to shed these pounds and get bathing suit ready! I love you all-Thank you for always supporting me-for the kind comments, thoughts and words. They mean the world, and remember Thanksgiving and those that are fighting our wonderful freedom. Those that are not with family and friends, pray for those people in harms way and remember we are blessed. Love and blessings all~ HAPPY THANKSGIVING! ~~~Sarah