This morning was a VERY promising job interview that is more suited to my degree, my passions, my knowledge base and quite frankly as much experience as I have had in my 13 plus years of career's in the Air Force, civilian sector and the Department of Defense most recently I deserve to be managing and putting those skills to good use because that is where my interests are. It would be an Insurance Supervisor at a local medical center here in Florida, about 10 minutes from home and the team concept is very big in this facility and that is a plus in my world! They encourage school, learning, and pay a significant portion of school costs after the intitial probation period. The interview was 90 minutes of questions, seriously I was a sweaty mess when I left there and I answered those questions the way I felt a person with my experiance would comment on them, not what I wanted them to hear...Total honesty is the best policy in my opinion! It would be a rather large section and the money is quite good for the area, they will make their decision in a few weeks so now I get to sit back and wait...NOT PATIENTLY might I add. Haha! Patience is not something I ever really got, I never perfected it, I like everything yesterday--Isn't that totally hilarious considering I spent much of my adult life being told what to do and when to do it? The patience factor has always been a tough one for me but I prefer to look at it as a plus and that I would bring many positive things to the table, to the job, to the people I would have the pleasure of working with. So now I wait...in the mean time I get to enjoy my kids, and tomorrow is beach day and I think I will wrap myself in a sheet considering the tons of sunblock on my face, the huge hat and tons of sunblock all over my body do not seem to be doing a darn thing! I instead look so tan that someone asked me if I was Mexican-Nope just a regular white girl! I have always tanned really well, never really burn, but geez it is only April, Come October I will be so dark that no one will know it is me! I was told that the sun reflects off of the very white, sugar fine sand of the beach and that is why my face perhaps is getting slapped with tons O' sunshine! When the trio and I head to the beach we make sand castles, and cakes made of sand, the girls make me "green tea" and "coffee" as well so it is fun all around! Kellan likes to chase the poor seagulls and the other day he ran straight into the water, got caught in the undertow quickly and I literally had to grab him by his hair because that was all I could reach. He is quick, so tomorrow I am going with a friend who just moved here, we worked together in Colorado and we will have girl time and I will have another pair of hands for the kids-YAY! Then Sunday we will do church of course and park play in the afternoon and then repeat this coming week, I do not mind the repeat of our routine because I know that there will come a time when I will not be with them all day, everyday and that they will have to go back to daycare so for now I am enjoying it all-the good, the busy, the stressful at times, and overall the beauty of my trio-my loves-my world. I can also happily report that we are doing pretty darn good on the potty training deal. All 3 are doing all at once, yes I deserve mom of the year for sure!!! Haha! To be honest, I am such a creature of habit that they have turned into that as well, they love structure, schedule, routine and I am blessed beyond measure! Jason left for his school last week and the kids have been good so far, I keep them so busy that quite frankly they don't have the time to think about much else other than arts and crafts time, walks, beach time, our nightly dancing around the house which is new and I have to say that no matter how much stress or other emotions I may be feeling at the time, the minute we blast music and start dancing and being silly it really helps my heart, and soul not to mention their laughs and giggles are PRICELESS!!! We blast Pandora radio and rock it out-what fun! Ten years ago I was a kid and now here I am a few weeks from another year older and I find the most enjoyment out of being with my kids, my trio who are hilarious and each have such good little hearts. Being a mom was the best decision I ever made and every day they are with me and growing and healthy and thriving I realize how lucky I am to have them, they saved me in many ways, ways I will not go into but they really did an overhaul on me nearly 4 years ago for the twins and nearly 3 years ago for the Lady Violet! Where does time go? It is simply marching on, in warp speed and there are days like today that I want it to slow down just a touch...Next we have really been enjoying our church, it has so many amazing people in it and I am amazed daily at what things are unfolding right in front of me, we may not have well...Fancy anything but we have enough to get by, to keep our kids healthy and happy and that to me is what life is all about. If I could work on one thing though within myself(And I am!) is to not let negative people occupy space in my head and heart, they have no business there in my opinion and it is cleansing to a point honestly. I need to stop worrying about others and what they may or may not think, may or may not like me, and quite frankly just STOP doing that negative self talk. I have never had a really strong self-esteem, there I said it...Weight fluctuating, life stuff happening, etc...I have never been a huge fan of myself, of Sarah-so I am now starting on a new journey if you will. I am learning to like me, to love me, to be my cheerleader, and to find what makes me different from others in a good way and how I can use those differences as a positive. It can help me learn about ME and show myself that yes I am WORTH IT, I am pretty darn great and I am deserving of happiness. Why the "me" stuff? Well I realize that if I cannot love me, and I mean really love myself then how can I mentor and direct my children to love themselves if their mommy does not? It is real, this is real talk and I need to love ME more so that I can be better in my personal life, as well as my professional life. Hold my head high because you know what? I have succeeded in quite a bit in my life so far, from serving my country to becoming a mommy to the trio-I have the determination, now I just need to remember what makes me great and remember that it is ok and necessary to love yourself! There are times where people will try to break you down to make themselves feel better, do not let them! There will be times where you need to be your own advocate, so advocate away people-and finally remember--YOU ARE WORTH IT! I will post pictures of our beach adventures over the past few days, my camera totally died last week so I am looking for a new one, perhaps my birthday gift to myself! Hmmmmm....Enjoy the pictures everyone-Florida is simply beautiful and the humidity is really starting to affect my afro hair-no matter what I do it is wild and HUGE! Should make for an interesting summer! Love to you all and thank you for always supporting me and my ramblings~~~
This morning was a VERY promising job interview that is more suited to my degree, my passions, my knowledge base and quite frankly as much experience as I have had in my 13 plus years of career's in the Air Force, civilian sector and the Department of Defense most recently I deserve to be managing and putting those skills to good use because that is where my interests are. It would be an Insurance Supervisor at a local medical center here in Florida, about 10 minutes from home and the team concept is very big in this facility and that is a plus in my world! They encourage school, learning, and pay a significant portion of school costs after the intitial probation period. The interview was 90 minutes of questions, seriously I was a sweaty mess when I left there and I answered those questions the way I felt a person with my experiance would comment on them, not what I wanted them to hear...Total honesty is the best policy in my opinion! It would be a rather large section and the money is quite good for the area, they will make their decision in a few weeks so now I get to sit back and wait...NOT PATIENTLY might I add. Haha! Patience is not something I ever really got, I never perfected it, I like everything yesterday--Isn't that totally hilarious considering I spent much of my adult life being told what to do and when to do it? The patience factor has always been a tough one for me but I prefer to look at it as a plus and that I would bring many positive things to the table, to the job, to the people I would have the pleasure of working with. So now I wait...in the mean time I get to enjoy my kids, and tomorrow is beach day and I think I will wrap myself in a sheet considering the tons of sunblock on my face, the huge hat and tons of sunblock all over my body do not seem to be doing a darn thing! I instead look so tan that someone asked me if I was Mexican-Nope just a regular white girl! I have always tanned really well, never really burn, but geez it is only April, Come October I will be so dark that no one will know it is me! I was told that the sun reflects off of the very white, sugar fine sand of the beach and that is why my face perhaps is getting slapped with tons O' sunshine! When the trio and I head to the beach we make sand castles, and cakes made of sand, the girls make me "green tea" and "coffee" as well so it is fun all around! Kellan likes to chase the poor seagulls and the other day he ran straight into the water, got caught in the undertow quickly and I literally had to grab him by his hair because that was all I could reach. He is quick, so tomorrow I am going with a friend who just moved here, we worked together in Colorado and we will have girl time and I will have another pair of hands for the kids-YAY! Then Sunday we will do church of course and park play in the afternoon and then repeat this coming week, I do not mind the repeat of our routine because I know that there will come a time when I will not be with them all day, everyday and that they will have to go back to daycare so for now I am enjoying it all-the good, the busy, the stressful at times, and overall the beauty of my trio-my loves-my world. I can also happily report that we are doing pretty darn good on the potty training deal. All 3 are doing all at once, yes I deserve mom of the year for sure!!! Haha! To be honest, I am such a creature of habit that they have turned into that as well, they love structure, schedule, routine and I am blessed beyond measure! Jason left for his school last week and the kids have been good so far, I keep them so busy that quite frankly they don't have the time to think about much else other than arts and crafts time, walks, beach time, our nightly dancing around the house which is new and I have to say that no matter how much stress or other emotions I may be feeling at the time, the minute we blast music and start dancing and being silly it really helps my heart, and soul not to mention their laughs and giggles are PRICELESS!!! We blast Pandora radio and rock it out-what fun! Ten years ago I was a kid and now here I am a few weeks from another year older and I find the most enjoyment out of being with my kids, my trio who are hilarious and each have such good little hearts. Being a mom was the best decision I ever made and every day they are with me and growing and healthy and thriving I realize how lucky I am to have them, they saved me in many ways, ways I will not go into but they really did an overhaul on me nearly 4 years ago for the twins and nearly 3 years ago for the Lady Violet! Where does time go? It is simply marching on, in warp speed and there are days like today that I want it to slow down just a touch...Next we have really been enjoying our church, it has so many amazing people in it and I am amazed daily at what things are unfolding right in front of me, we may not have well...Fancy anything but we have enough to get by, to keep our kids healthy and happy and that to me is what life is all about. If I could work on one thing though within myself(And I am!) is to not let negative people occupy space in my head and heart, they have no business there in my opinion and it is cleansing to a point honestly. I need to stop worrying about others and what they may or may not think, may or may not like me, and quite frankly just STOP doing that negative self talk. I have never had a really strong self-esteem, there I said it...Weight fluctuating, life stuff happening, etc...I have never been a huge fan of myself, of Sarah-so I am now starting on a new journey if you will. I am learning to like me, to love me, to be my cheerleader, and to find what makes me different from others in a good way and how I can use those differences as a positive. It can help me learn about ME and show myself that yes I am WORTH IT, I am pretty darn great and I am deserving of happiness. Why the "me" stuff? Well I realize that if I cannot love me, and I mean really love myself then how can I mentor and direct my children to love themselves if their mommy does not? It is real, this is real talk and I need to love ME more so that I can be better in my personal life, as well as my professional life. Hold my head high because you know what? I have succeeded in quite a bit in my life so far, from serving my country to becoming a mommy to the trio-I have the determination, now I just need to remember what makes me great and remember that it is ok and necessary to love yourself! There are times where people will try to break you down to make themselves feel better, do not let them! There will be times where you need to be your own advocate, so advocate away people-and finally remember--YOU ARE WORTH IT! I will post pictures of our beach adventures over the past few days, my camera totally died last week so I am looking for a new one, perhaps my birthday gift to myself! Hmmmmm....Enjoy the pictures everyone-Florida is simply beautiful and the humidity is really starting to affect my afro hair-no matter what I do it is wild and HUGE! Should make for an interesting summer! Love to you all and thank you for always supporting me and my ramblings~~~
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