Sunday's are fun days!

~It has been a few weeks since I posted anything and I figured tonight was perfect...Kids are in their rooms, trying NOT to go to sleep, house is sort of quiet-haha and listening to the rain storm has me in a blogging sort of mood! These last few weeks have been what feels like going at mock speed, my days are long yet quick and sleep seems less and less but tis' the life of a single mommy. I am a great planner so when we all wake up in the morning I am set to rock and roll! I have been eating nothing but fruits, veggies and lean protein for almost 4 months now and am starting to round a corner in a positive way with regard to my health. I purchase all Organic and yes it is pricey but I figure for my kids and my health it is more than worth it, not to mention it is what is necessary so I can rid my body of the junk that was in it before. I am still on many pills a day, that will not end for several more months but each day is well a new day, I have to thank God for all that he has given me, my kids, my family. I have gone back to church, started living my life the way I should emotionally, spiritually, and physically, what a good example I hope and pray that I am sending to my kids in years to come. I went back to work full time 2 weeks ago and as a whole a month now, and although there are more days than I can count that I simply feel awful from my stomach issues to the medications to a combination of both I find myself simply digging deep and trudging through. We all have struggles but what I have learned is how one deals with those struggles that makes the difference. When I go to work there really is a select few I trust, what can I say I learned people talked bad about me when I was away healing and it hurt, to my core so when I am at work despite how I feel I am on point and no one knows otherwise. I refuse to bring my problems to work, I see too many that do that..heck I used to and I realize now in hindsight that it was not the best choice I have made. Your problems are YOUR OWN and I am lucky enough to have a select few that I can share my life with, without fear of judgement or reproach, just shoulders I can lean on, cry on, laugh on...Etc..For that I am blessed! I will not lie though, most of my "people" are far away so sadly I find myself alone at night and that is when then the lonely bugs slip in. I am sad that we are not a family right now but then I remember what I DO have and that perks me back up! I take it second by second, a Dr I work with is a wonderful person and friend and he asked me the other day "Sarah how do you do it all with the kids and work and everything else, are you ok?" I said Doc I take it second by second, and that is the best I can do for now, aren't we all simply trying to get by? Work through our stuff and make it better in the end? I want to make a difference, I want to leave the world someday better and that is what I strive for now...Being sick taught me a lot, to trust my family and know they will FOREVER be there, to never underestimate my own inner strength and finally there is no greater joy than being a mommy and the love my kids shower on me every day! I was lucky enough to have Memorial day weekend with Jason's mom who came in for a visit, it sure is always a blessing to see her. She is so giving to my kids and I, and is a wonderful listener! She showered my kids and I with love and it was wonderful, now we miss her more though!!! :P I am trying to sweet talk my folks into coming to visit SOON! I miss my family so much and wish the kids and I could come visit for the summer but I must focus on work and regaining credibility there, show them that I can do it and I am still great at my job! There are doubts from some but I will show them and prove them wrong!!! Jason is doing as well as he can in Korea, missing his kids like crazy but thankfully we/they see him daily and chat, it is amazing how good they are all talking now!!! Time really does fly right by so I am trying to take more pictures, and spend more time with them than cleaning or laundry...That junk will always be there but they will not be this age forever so I am embracing it more. More playing and running around and laughing...It is good for their soul as well as mine. I will close because I want a few more good night kisses and cuddles from my trio but I bid you all good night and send much love from Colorado! <3