Life and all of her friends.

Life has a way of sneaking up and smacking us in the face doesn't she? Things go a long a path for time, we think that we have finally gotten to "that place" where things will finally start to work out and BAM it all flips yet again and we lose jobs we thought were secure, we are forced to rely on savings to get by, and some of us have to take jobs that we never thought we would work. I will tell you quite honestly that 8 months ago when I began working at Starbuck's I felt defeated, I felt sad because when I was in Colorado Springs I had THE JOB, I was THE PERSON, I won so many awards I lost count, I was on cloud 9 and then move to Florida and find myself so humbled 8 months later. Why? The reason is obvious, I was forced to cut out everything, I sold so much on Craigslist and eBay and actually still do. I was forced to make the choices of what was a NEED and a WANT. Those two things are so very different, For Christmas I bought myself a pair of boots that had been on lay away for 5 months total because that was the way it had to happen. Am I embarrassed? HECK NO! I hold my head high, but let me get back to life and her sneaky ways of showing us perhaps a different path for our lives, a path that I did not think was for me BUT here I am. Working at Starbuck's, applying for so many jobs everyday that I have literally lost count-I remain rooted in faith that when something comes up, the job I am meant to be doing it will come through but for now I am doing my best for my family and my kids. I am showing them that despite defeat you can accomplish anything, because YES there are days where I want to be pissed or simply throw in the towel yet I know I cannot. I am strong, I am a mommy, and there is nothing I cannot do! We all have our days, our times where we want to be alone, to mourn the loss, mourn the frustration but we MUST dust ourselves off and keep going! I am a degree holder, have over 15 years of experience in the medical field and am working at Starbuck's. I love my Starbuck's family and am thanking God I even have a job because I see so many struggle sadly, barely make ends meet and as an adult we do what we must. We will do whatever job necessary to make it work-for the time being because it will not be forever this I am totally sure of! For now I am thanking God that I have a job and I know it will not be forever and that is ok-I am counting my blessings always. For a few weeks I was reading a book called "The Lone Survivor", based on the Navy seal mission that essentially went to hell in every way and failed. All but one lost their lives fighting for our country, the book is written by the only survivor, it is a book that really put it all back into perspective again. How funny life does that-all the time!!! I am a PROUD AMERICAN, a PROUD veteran of the United States Air Force and feel a special love for all things military, the brotherhood that comes with being part of something so amazing, so unique, so special. I have my military family/friends that will forever be just that, FAMILY. After finishing the book I went and saw the movie, it was spot on and it was heart breaking to watch yet was something I need to see, needed to stomach if you will. It was intense and made me that much more appreciative of our military forces but life as well! Life is PRECIOUS, I sit here and tell you I am happy all the time and never have a poor me moment but that would be not true. My point-simple. Step out of your ox if necessary, and what ever God you may choose to believe in has a plan for you, for your life. So that while it may not mirror what you had set for yourself it will work out. I pushed away far too many people in the beginning of my personal experience last year but now I realize it was to help others, to be a better shoulder for those who need me and finally a more trusting person in faith and the plan that is laid out for me yet I have no idea what the plan is. I will trust God that he is setting me in the correct place in life and simply enjoy! I traded in all the material items for special beach time with my babies, beautiful sunsets and beautiful sunrises, walks along the beach to clear my head and simply time to step back and ENJOY-not always easy but ALWAYS so very worth it! Enjoy life my friends...for life is a true gift and wake up every day finding something positive amidst the crazy and not so awesome!

Much love~
S